Friday, July 31, 2015

FINANCE:


I had been so strong, so brave, so trusting for so long.
I was a single parent with two children, recently divorced.
I had worked so courageously at being grateful for what I had,
while setting financial goals and working at believing I
deserved the best.

I had put up with so much poverty, so much deprivation.
Daily, I worked the Eleventh Step. I worked so hard at praying
for knowledge of God's will for me only, and the power to carry
it through. I was doing my best, working my hardest.

And there just wasn't enough money. Life had been a struggle
in many ways, but the financial struggle seemed endless.

Money isn't everything, but it takes money to solve certain problems.
I was sick of "letting go" and "letting go" and "letting go." I was
sick of "acting as if" I had enough money. I was tired of having to
work so hard daily at letting go of the pain and fear about not having
enough. I was tired of working so hard at being happy without having
enough. Actually, most of the time I was happy. I had found my soul
in poverty. But now that I had my soul and my self, I wanted some
money too.

While I sat in the car trying to compose myself, I heard God speak to
me in that silent, still voice that whispers gently to our souls.

"You don't ever have to worry about money again, child. Not unless
you want to. I told you that I would take care of you. And I will."

Great, I thought. Thanks a lot. I believe you. I trust you. But look
around. I have no money. I have no food. You've let me down.

Again I heard His voice in my soul: "You don't have to worry about
money again. You don't have to be afraid. I promised to meet all your
needs."

I went home, called a friend, and asked to borrow some money. I hated
borrowing, but I had no choice. My breakdown in the car was a release,
but it didn't solve a thing – that day. There was no check in the mailbox.

But I got food for the day. And the next day. And the next. Within six
months, my income doubled. Within nine months, it tripled. Since that
day, I have had hard times, but I have never had to go without – not for
more than a moment in time.

Now, I have enough. Sometimes I still worry about money because that
seems to be habitual. But now I know I don't have to, and I know I never
did.

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